Today is one of my no-salon days. And after having a stern and thorough talk with myself yesterday, with numbers to back it up, I realised that this time is such an immense treshold for me that no longer could be ignored.
While I'm writing this, I spot this year's first butterfly. Butterflies are the perfect example of transformation, endurance, creativity and mystery.
I realised that I need to change the way I treat Siren. The salon, the celebrations, the sojourns. They're all an intricate part of my being. Lately I started noticing that I haven't been treating the calling in daily life as I should and I got more and more signs - that didn't involve cards by the way :-P - that I wasn't in alignment with the values and strengths I started with one year ago.
At first I wanted to meet society half way, offering lots of different things at cheap prices. But when half of your income goes to the state, working at really low prices is gonna do more harm than good. This is not why I have years of experience in my fields, this is not why I have a background in several professions that span more than 15 years. My spiritual background goes even further back to almost 30 years by 2030.
Yet, struggling in the western paradigm and systems I tried to accommodate situations I know nothing about and shouldn't take as my responsibility.
And thus Siren has changed immensely, what seemed like overnight, has been going on beneath the surface ever since I opened. I learn as I go and change where I must, adjust when the journey is not serving but causing irritation and frustration.
Today the new moon is in Pisces, my sun sign. I had my birthday a couple of days ago and as I'm nearing 40 in a couple of years - things change and so do I. I'm not the person I was 20, 10 and 1 year ago. I've learned so incredibly much, and yet I don't think I'll ever be done learning.
Also, this weekend we'll celebrate the Spring Equinox. I'm preparing the last things and will do the last bits of shopping tonight. The Spring Equinox is such a palpable time to feel the shift from Winter to Spring. Such a clear sign that a promise of greenery and flowers is slowly fulfilling before our eyes. And in a world that is going through so much destruction right now, it is easy to forgot that the earth still gives us signs that "this too shall pass", that we have to take responsibility for ourselves, our personal ecology and the planet we walk on every single day.
The equinox represents equal day equal night, light and dark, before and after. After the spring the days will grow longer than the nights until the height of summer where it will slowly reverse. It is a promising time, full of wishes; ideas and preparations. And seeing the buds on my cherry tree, which we planted last year, after this winter.. it IS a promise alright!
I just cleared the stone circle as we'll be using it for the ceremony this Saturday and I'll prepare gifts for the participants. I realise how much work it is and how much this is a matter of the heart. It gives me so much joy and I do it so very dearly.
I know that this year is full of teachings and a lot of adventures in the making. So I take this time and sit down, close my eyes, thank the sun and feel deeply where I am today in life. To be here is a blessing, I write, as another butterfly passes by.
Stay safe and full of loving integrity!
Lene
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